Fear of fate

Shared feelings, words inspired from other works.....

Our paths kept crossing,
we chose to ignore the obvious
You were afraid that the
colours of friendship would become fainter
I was afraid that my misfortune
would ruin our togetherness
In this play of fate 
what I feared happened
We couldn't meet one another
We cannot part from each other
All the happiness
we could've treasured is lost
What's left is the gambit of possibilities
What I feared has indeed happened

You are me, I'm you

The first time we met, it didn't seem like the beginning
you seemed familiar, it felt like I had known you earlier.
I couldn't understand then that how much
you are me and I'm you.

When we talked you would say what I wanted to say
I would also hear what you wouldn't say
I never understood that how without a word being said
you understood what I said.

Even when you were not close I felt your presence
like you were my shadow and more you were around even in the dark
Now when I look at myself in the mirror I see the reason why
you are in me and I'm in you.

Yet somehow the closer I come the more you seem to blur
perhaps because the smallest shadow is cast when the day is at it's brightest
The more I want to tell you of how we are connected the more words fail me
yet in all the words that were not said a lot was meant.

The harder I try to run away from you, the closer you seem
how can I run away from myself I keep asking
yet all those dreams that once lightened up my eyes are shattered
now when I dream they only burn my eyes.

How have I lost a target so close
Who can I tell for I have failed
I couldn't get something that was so much mine
perhaps I didn't realise that it was always mine.

The rising Sun

"Siva pujaku..." the song from the eternal classic Swarnakamalam has always been one of those songs I listen to when I feel a little low. This does not mean that the lyrics are all meant to be inspiring but there is a something in them that has always inspired me or consoled me.When I first wanted to write about this song and ggogled for the lyrics I was astonished as to see that lots of people have already written about it.

Even though it sounds like a duet it's more like an argument between the hero and the heroine who have a completely different outlook to life and their future. Sri Seetarama Sastry garu, the writer who penned the song believes that it is by far his toughest task and the wordplay in the song has no parallels in conveying the meaning of the situation the actors find themselves in. Yet off late I've found a completely new meaning to the song and very important lesson that can be drawn from it.

The lyrics :

Padamara padagalapai merise thaaralakai
Raathrini varinchake sandhyaa sundhari
Thoorupu vedhikapai vekuva narthakivai
Dhaathrini muripinche kaanthulu chindani
Nee kadalika chaithanyapu srikaaram kaani
Nidhurinchina hrudhaya ravali omkaaram kaani

Their meaning in the context of the film (copied from http://musicmavericks.blogspot.in/2007/09/ode-to-art-by-sirivennela.html) :

For the sake of shining stars on the hoods of the west(heroine wants to go to foreign country in this film),
don't embrace the night(darkness) o evening beauty;
on the stage of the east, by becoming a dance of the dawn,
do delight the earth by sprinkling light;
let your movements be an initiation for consciousness;
let the sleeping eeshwara (lord of dance) in your heart become an omkaaram (symbol of piousness, god, ultimate)

Their universal meaning :

Like the setting Sun that is drawn into the beauty of the night by the poisonous hoods of the West, don't fall into the trap and become dormant.
Be like the rising Sun that dances in the East, inspire the world by your brilliance and radiate your thoughts everywhere.
Let your every step be a new dawn and awaken the sleeping souls.

There are many other brilliant works by Sastry garu but this has got to be one of his best.Truly inspirational.
Salutes to the legend.

Poem from Udaan

Udaan a simple coming of age story of Rohan, a small town boy who wants to be a writer against his father's wishes who wants him to be an engineer. The movie is filled with so many cherish-able moments and filled with some of the best acting that one may be excused for not noting that most of the actors are making a debut with this film. Though it was not an immediate success it's one of the movies that will attain a cult status later for sure.

Here's one of my favourite poems from the movie :

Jo Lehron se aage nazar dekh paati
to tum jaan lete,
main kya sochta hoon.

Vo avaaj tumko  bhed jaati
to tum sochte, main kya sochta hoon.

Zid ka tumhara jo parda sarakti
khidkiyon se aage bhi tum dekh paate.

Aankhon se aadato ki palke hatate
to tum jaan lete, main kya sochta hoon.

Meri tarah hota agar khud par zara bharosa
to kuchh door tum bhi saath saath aate.

Rang meri aankhon ka baantte zara sa
to kuch door tum bhi aate saath saath aate.

Nasha aasma ka jo choomta tumhe bho,
hasrate tumhari naya janm paati;
khud doosre janm me meri udaan
chhoone kuchh door tum bhi saath saath aate.

Maybe it never was....

It was so good,
until it turned bad
may be it never was good.

There was so much between us,
until there was nothing
may be there never was a thing.

When I was up all night,
I thought you were up for me as well,
may be it was only me that was awake at night.

All I could think about was you,
until all I wanted was to forget you
may be I never wanted you.

Nenokkadine. Am I the only one with this opininon?

#1 or Nenokkadine is a blockbuster hit, people have unanimously appreciated the plot and effort of the director and actor to try out something so new and unheard of in Tollywood. Yes, they certainly did a great job and almost pulled it off. The movie is thoroughly enjoyable and deserves the success.

My best moments in the film are however not the twists in the plot or the climax where the truth about the murderers of the hero's parents is told. The best moment of the movie is after that, the last 10 minutes where the hero, who at one point of time actually believes that his parents exist only in his imagination and hence he cannot recollect their faces finds his old home. One by one from there on his memory returns and gets to meet his parents through little memories attached to a school bus, school song, an old musical instrument, his old house and a diary. All of this was just simply too well acted by Mahesh Babu and the director Sukumar should surely get the major credit for that idea and how it was executed.

That last 10 minutes for me is what will stay in memory for a long time to come. It's among the best moments in recent Tollywood movies as far as I'm concerned. Kudos to Sukumar for this.

Thoughts are infinite, endless.

I have ideas, I want to implement them. I don't though, sometimes because I think they are not good enough and most of the times because I'm too lazy to put my ideas to something materialistic.

For once I put my ideas to action, my hands worked with instructions from my mind.I seemed to enjoy it, I felt happy that I could finally seem my ideas turn to something real it was great pleasure. As things turned out I didn't put this real thing to use, I ended up regretting having to put so much effort on my idea.

I can't say if it was to console myself from the failure or if it is for real I've come to understand that all the ideas and thoughts seem so infinite and endless, they are vast and can take any form or shape as long as they are locked up in my "Mind Palace" as an idea yet to take shape, always a work in progress.

That's the beauty of the human mind, it gives infinite possibilities.

The answer to all my questions

When you smile your cheeks do not form a dimple
There is no special beauty mark
Not the voice of a nightingale
Yet your presence sends a spark.

Hair not long enough for plaits
Nor an hourglass physique
No manicured nails
The twinkle in your eyes hides a mystique.

Our first conversation is still fresh
In that instant it was my heart that you stole
I love making you blush
Your beauty is your soul

Your every feature sets you apart
I only have one last confession
You are a class-act
You are the answer to all my questions.